He did it again. Once again, i feel like i've been toyed. Dad, tell me what am i supposed to do now. Why am i always facing this kind of situation? Just what did i do till i deserved all these? Dad, few days past your birthday. Nothing else i wished for but wanting you right beside me and tell me everything is fine. That's all i ever wished for, dad. I can't face this anymore. What does all these means dad? Dad, seriously, i need you here right now. I really really need someone to talk to. I'm not strong enough to endure all these. Seriously, all these things that's happening right now is seriously craps and full of bullshits. Wondering why all these happened after you left me. Dad, before you left me, do you think i can handle all these problems alone? Do you think i'm strong enough to handle everything by myself? Yes, i know i should be handling things by myself now but i don't think i can do it. I really need you to guide me.